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I was SO excited to see her. The look on her face when she saw me waiting for her was priceless. Her smile and her face beaming was enough to make my heart burst! She keeps telling me over and over how much she loves me. This morning she was in the bathroom and she just started smiling and I asked her what she was smiling about and she said, "I’m just so happy to be home!" One doesn't experience true unconditional love until they have a child. It's the most wonderful experience. My life before becoming a mother just seems so pointless. I can't imagine not being a mother.

With that being said, it's sad that B will never know what it's like to have her parents together. She tells me that she wishes that her daddy lived with us, that way she would never have to leave me. Growing up I never knew my real dad. It was just my mother and me until she married G when I was 7. Growing up G and I didn't get a long too well. He definitely never won "Step-Father of the Year." That's why I'm so picky when it comes to men that I let in my life. If I ever do get married, he has to love B 100% and unconditionally as if she were his own blood. She keeps asking me when I'm going to get a husband, so we can have a baby. I just tell her that whenever God sends me a husband is when I'll get one. That seems to hold her off for the moment :)